19 Jun

There was a mouse being chased by a lion and the lion was rapidly closing in on the mouse and the mouse saw that he was at the end of a cliff so he had no choice but to make a leap off of the ground he was standing, so he leaped away from the lion. As he was falling to his apparent certain death the mouse noticed a twig on the side of the cliff and grabbed hold of it and hung on. The lion reached and reached but could not quite reach the mouse no matter how hard he tried to lean down and extend his claws the just barely found the mouse out of reach.

All of a sudden the mouse noticed the twig he was holding on to was slowly uprooting from his weight holding on to it. So here is the terrible predicament the mouse found himself; he had a roaring lion trying to reach down and eat him and the twig keeping him from falling to his certain death was coming out of its roots. Then in the middle of this dilemma the mouse noticed that the twig he was holding on to for dear life had two berries growing on it and the mouse thought why not take a bite of one of them before either the lion figured a way to reach him and eat him or he fell to his certain death.

The mouse took a big ol bite of the berry and thought to himself, “MY GOODNESS THIS BERRY IS SWEET!”

That’s the end of the story – enjoy the berries of the NOW in your life!Image

“… direct our attention to what He would have us be.” (BB pg 68)

22 Feb


A: It’s not what you are or what you have been that God sees, but what you desire to be.


I sometimes judge myself and my recovery based solely on where I see others and what they have or how much better they seem to be doing than myself. I sometimes think of what I should “DO” and what I should “HAVE” etc, etc. instead of living in the presence where as the Big Book says, “There is… One Who has ALL Power that One is God may you find Him NOW.”

It IS SO WRONG OF ME TO JUDGE MYSELF SO HARSHLY! I believe it is better for me to look at myself this way, “to look at where I was when I came in to the Program in a state of pitiful and incomprehensible demoralization and where I am today… this is the true measurement of my spiritual growth in the program!

AS the Old Gospel song says, “Ol Lawd, I ain’t what I should be… Ol Lawd, I ain’t evenwhat I am gonna be… but thank ya lawd that I ain’t what I used to be!”

22 Feb

Sponsee: “How do I know if I’m an alcoholic?”

Sponsor: “Chapter 4, Page 44, 4th line down.”

“If, when you honestly want to, you find you cannot quit entirely, or if when drinking, you have little control over the amount you take, you are probably alcoholic.”

ARE YOU CONSCIOUS OF YOUR CONSCIENCE? – Don’t say what you’re thinking, think about what you are saying!

14 Sep


“Each individual should consult his own conscience.” BB pg 132
“For the first time, he lived in conscious companionship with his Creator.” BB pg 56

CONSCIOUS: perceiving, apprehending, or noticing with a degree of controlled thought or observation. Consciousness is the quality or state of being aware of an external object or something within oneself. It has been defined as: subjectivity, awareness, the ability to experience or to feel, wakefulness, having a sense of selfhood, and the executive control system of the mind.

CONSCIENCE: the awareness of a moral or ethical aspect to one’s conduct together with the urge to prefer right over wrong: Let your conscience be your guide. It is the inner sense of what is right or wrong in one’s conduct or motives, impelling one toward right action: to follow the dictates of conscience.

IN SHORT, TODAY THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU’RE THINKING ABOUT! As a very wise man once told me, “Don’t say what you’re thinking, think about what you are saying!” After he told me that, I believe that I really began to get the idea of becoming God Conscious.


14 Sep


How Bill W’s Divine-discontentment led him to finding God’s goals hidden in his heart… perhaps that’s the way it is for us too. As C. S. Lewis once said, “Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing had yet been done.”

When Bill Wilson asked Father Ed Dowling whether there was ever to be any satisfaction, the older man snapped back, “NEVER . NEVER ANY.” Bill was to be a person who would keep on reaching. In his reaching he would find Gods goals, hidden in his own heart. Father Ed Dowling frequently reminded Bill of the verse, “Blessed are they who hunger and thirst.”

“Is he not a victim of the delusion that he can wrest satisfaction and happiness out of this world if he only manages well?” BB pg 61 “For we are now on a different basis; the basis of trusting and relying upon God.” BB pg 68


Recovery is not all-tiresome, unrewarded work. There are times of joy and rest, times when we comfortably practice what we have learned. There are times of change, times when we struggle to learn something new or overcome a particular problem.

These are the times when what we’ve been practicing in recovery begins to show in our life. These times of change are intense, but purposeful.

There are also times when, at a deep level, we are being “reprogrammed.” We start letting go of beliefs and behaviors. We may feel frightened or confused during these times. Our old behaviors or patterns may not have worked for us, but they were comfortable and familiar.

During these times we may feel vulnerable, lonely, and needy – like we are on a journey without a road map or a flashlight, and we feel as if no one has traveled this ground before.

We may not understand what is being worked out in us. We may not know where or if we are being led.

We are being led. We are not alone. Our Higher Power is working His finest and best to bring true change in us. Others have traveled this road to. We will be led to someone who can help us, someone who can provide the markers we need.

We are being prepared for receiving as much joy and love as our heart can hold.

Recovery is a healing process. We can trust it, even when we don’t understand it. We are right where we need to be in this process; we’re going through exactly what we need to experience. And where we’re going is better than any place we’ve been.

SELF-DENUNCIATION: “The spiritual fortitude of constant refusal to accept the old ideas, emotions, and attitudes which were once the guiding forces of one’s life.”

14 Sep
If our choice of God is to be made with integrity, we must first have felt other attractions and chosen, painfully, not to make them our gods. Don’t wait for some miracle to be performed on you from without, lifting you above your fears and doubts and self-centeredness. You help God from within by turning in outgoing love to others, and miraculously your fears and doubts and self-centeredness will vanish. The miracle starts within, not from without.

You can do nothing to bring it about, but you can avoid creating obstacles.

Watch your mind, how it comes into being, how it operates.

As you watch your mind, you discover your self as the watcher.

When you stand motionless, only watching, you discover your self as the light behind the watcher.

The source of light is dark, unknown is the source of knowledge.

That source alone is.

Go back to that source and abide there.

It is not in the sky nor in the all-pervading ether.

God is all that is great and wonderful; I am nothing, have nothing, can do nothing.

Yet all comes out of me — the source is me; the root, the origin is me.

When reality explodes in you, you may call it experience of God.

Or, rather, it is God experiencing you.

God knows you when you know yourself.

Reality is not the result of a process; it is an explosion.

It is definitely beyond the mind, but all you can do is to know your mind well.

Not that the mind will help you, but by knowing your mind you may avoid your mind disabling you.

You have to be very alert, or else your mind will play false with you.

It is like watching a thief — not that you expect anything from a thief, but you do not want to be robbed.

In the same way you give a lot of attention to the mind without expecting anything from it.

Evil is a parasite. It has no permanent life of itself; its whole existence depends on the life it borrows from its parent, and when its connection with the parent is severed nothing remains. In Divine Mind there is no recognition of evil conditions. Such conditions have no basis of reality. They are conjurations of a false consciousness. Apparent evil is the result of ignorance, and when Truth is presented the error disappears.

There is but one presence and one power, God omnipotent. But man has the privilege and freedom of using this power as he will. When he misuses it he brings about inharmonious conditions. These are called evil. Evil appears in the world because man is not in spiritual understanding. He has not learned that all is Mind; neither has he conformed to the law of Mind, with the result that inharmony appears in his body and affairs. He can do away with evil by learning rightly to use the one Power. If there were a power of evil, it could not be change.

Evil must be overcome with good. We must dwell in the good so wholly that all the substance of our thoughts and our being is given over to the promotion of the good. This is a mental process in which all negation (evil) is denied, and creative, fearless affirmation of God’s perfect good is steadfastly adhered to.



13 Sep


“Father feels he has struck something better than gold. For a time he may try to hug the new treasure to himself. He may not see at once that he has barely scratched a limitless lode which will pay dividends only if he mines it for the rest of his life and insists on giving away the entire product.”

The study of the Big Book is not unlike the search for diamonds in South Africa. At first people found a few diamonds in the yellow clay, and they were delighted with their good fortune, even while they supposed that this was to be the full extent of their find. Then, upon digging deeper, they came upon the blue clay, and to their amazement found as many precious stones in a day as they had previously found in a year.

In your exploration of Big Book Truth, see to it that you do not rest satisfied in the yellow clay of a few spiritual discoveries, but press on to the rich blue clay underneath. The Big Book, however, differs from the diamond field in the sublime fact that beneath the blue clay there are more and still more and richer strata, awaiting the touch of spiritual perception – on and on to Infinity.

O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God found in the big Book! (I got this idea from an EF book I was reading)